I’m Not Dead.

I have no excuses.  I’ve been lazy – such a slacker Sharon!  I just wanted to report that I am not dead.  I’m going to give you a quick overview of what I’ve been up to then leave a special treat from YouTube P!NK’s song “I’m Not Dead” and the lyrics below. Enjoy!

So I’m almost done with my Whole30 Program. Finishing up Day 29 to be exact.

Positive thoughts:

  • Looking in the mirror my face seems to be less pudgy. lol
  • My arms are a little more defined (still flabby but I know if I start working out they’ll be toned soon especially if I keep eating right at least 90% of the time)
  • My jeans/shorts no longer require me to lay on the bed to zip up and my buttons aren’t threatening to pop out on me
  • I like wearing tank tops again as they are not showing my “rolls” as much. haha
  • My boobs are smaller (which is fantastic because I can wear my old bras again)
  • My abdominal area is starting to take shape (again, if I keep eating right and start working out I know I can maintain/improve this area)
  • My hair seems longer?  I will have to take an after photo and compare haha
  • As for my butt… well, I need to hit the stairs and squats to improve that area!

My favorite part of the Whole30 is not having the same mentality like “hmm… what should I eat?” but it’s more like “OH MY GOD it’s almost MEAL 2 and I haven’t cooked my chicken yet!” lol  Seriously, I mean, I’ve always LOVED food but now it’s more like a priority and I’m really starting to think of my meals as… what would give me the nutrients I need to get through until my next meal?  As opposed to “hmm.. what sounds good?” I mean, the fact that my food have been DELICIOUS is absolutely a bonus.  I don’t want to be a zombie any more and just go for the latest appetizing commercial on TV where flavor is OVERKILL and nutrition is compromised.

I’ve gotten so used to throwing my simple meals together… I’m kind of afraid of the next step: the reintroduction.  I’ve got the basic idea of how it’s supposed to work… reintroduce myself to “regular foods” but in increments with specific groups (e.g. legumes, grain, dairy, etc).  I’m not going to lie, I’m kind of scared it’s like meeting someone for the first time – not really sure what to expect. haha

I know that everyone is different and that your plan of a reintroduction may not be the same as mine just like how I may react to certain foods while you don’t.  I read that if I don’t particularly like a certain type of food then I probably shouldn’t even touch it again (e.g. red/kidney/pinto beans).  What I’m really looking forward to is Tiramisu, chocolate glazed donut, ice cream, mushroom cheese burger, and 1lbs. The Boiling Crab Shrimp. (Not at the same time or even day of course). I haven’t created a game plan yet and I SHOULD.  In fact, I made a pact with myself that I am to keep eating like I’m still on the whole 30 until I get a solid plan down for the reintroduction phase.  I don’t want my 30 days of good food to go to waste. It’s time to get intuned with my body and learn what it doesn’t/does like.

A bunch of other stuff is going on but you know what… I’m going to leave those for other entries. 😉

Without further ado…

Lyrics:

I’m Not Dead
BY: P!NK

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

There’s all these cracks, crack of sunlight
Crack in the mirror, on your lips
It’s the moment of a sunset Friday
When our conversations twist

It’s the fifth day of ice on a new tattoo
But the ice should be on our heads
We only spun the wheel to catch ourselves
So we weren’t left for death

And I was never looking for approval from anyone but you
And though this journey is over, I’ll go back if you ask me to

I’m not dead just floating
Right between the ink of your tattoo
In the belly of the beast we turned into

I’m not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You’re my crack of sunlight

You can do the math a thousand ways
But you can’t erase the facts
That others come and others go
But you always come back

I’m a winter flower underground
Always thirsty for summer rain
And just like the change of seasons
I know you’ll be back again

I’m not dead just floating
Underneath the ink of my tattoo
I’ve tried to hide my scars from you

I’m not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You’re my crack of sunlight, oh

I’m not dead just yet

I’m not dead I’m just floating
Doesn’t matter where I’m going, I’ll find you
(I’m not scared at all)

Underneath the cuts and bruises
Finally gained what no one loses, I’ll find you
(I will find you)

I’m not dead just floating
I’m not scared just changing
You’re my crack of sunlight, yeah

Songwriters
Moore, Alecia B / Mann, Billy

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Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

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4 thoughts on “I’m Not Dead.

  1. Welcome back! Congrats on keeping with your eating schedule. While I don’t necessarily agree with this program myself, anything that makes a person aware of what they are/aren’t eating is a good thing. It really is startling when you sit down and log it!

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    • Don’t get me wrong – I think everyone should be able to eat whatever they whenever they want. I’m just saying that everyone should want to be healthy and be aware of what they’re consuming. I think we’ve let the business corporations dictate what we should pay for when it comes to food on the pretense that it tastes good and it’s “approved”. It’s good to be aware is all. 😉

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  2. I hope your journey of self better-ness is going well and I’m glad to hear that you’ve felt such a big change already! I wish I had the motivation to try this big of a change.

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